Saturday, February 6, 2010
Last blogged @ 10:45 PM

hey..

i think the time of the month is cumin..
why?
i've been sOoOOo fcukin emotional lately.
it came to a point when,
just now, Lil Bro said smth nasty to me and i actually teared up!
yes. i cried.
bukan melalak lah..but y'knw..
few teardrops gituk.

pecah whye.

i dun feel like guing out..
Everything i do mcm tk kene..
even the way i look, which im usually fine with,
TAK KENE!

to make things worst,
i think Wonderboy thinks imma freak or smth.
:'(
rmbr the chocs i Anonymously gave him the other day?
thru my SVE project tuuh.
well yesterday,
i logged in Facebook and randomly went to hys profile..
i was fcukin happy when i saw his shoutout.
'Thanks to whoever that gave me the chocolate. It was a nice gesture..'

i immedietely PM-ed my gf, Faizlin.
told her abt it and she suggested that i shud give hym a message.
telling him it was me etc..
after much thought,
i sent him a msg on facebook.
'hey, it was me whom sent you the chocs. hope ya enjoyed em. & your welcome, friend!'
Faizlin said the message was okay.
so yeah.

Little did i expect,
he ONLINE-ed just minutes after i sent him the message.
i was fcukin nervous waiting for his reaction, reply or smth lah..
den he replied.


'oh it was you. thank you.'


thats all.
and he went offline after dat.

im fcuking confused.
i don't know whuts hys reaction ..
is he sincere when he said thnks right after knowing it was me?
or..
he's prolly thinking, wtf. why must it be me tt sent the chocs.

fcukk.
i dunnoe whuts gotten into me.
i've never been this risk taker before.
i've never 'acted' on a crush.
i mean,
so far lau i have a crush on someone,
that'll be it.
just a passing eyecandy.
He's different.
I add him up at FB,
poke-ed him,
even STARTED A CONVO with him.

now i know how Amathani feels.
why she feels like running away everytime Myn is near.
I don't wanna go school on Monday.

for once,
im glad he's graduating is a few months time.


ahhhh fuck!

I HOPE this is just some overreaction im having due to the weird moodswings im having now.
please pass soon =(
i hate this feeling.
I need Simpang where i can pour everything out.
I need my Good Girls coz even when im down, they never fail to make me laugh.

Phrase of the day; loyalty in question. moving on soon?

Klah,till den..
lOTsa luRve,
aylana xoxo