Saturday, February 27, 2010
Last blogged @ 10:36 PM

heyYYYYy..

gosh!
Finals in 2 weeks time.
MUGGING MODE ON FOR THIS WEEK.
-_-'

SVE is killing me MORE den WFB is
ergghhh.
toooo much frigging wordsss.
steps..
irritating lurhh.
TPS is the mose easiest to score compared to the other two.
shall do my best in ace-ing that module!

Work's alright just now.
Rockstah and Mr Bicepx showed me a MEAN video.
but very creative and funny jugak uh, in a way. LOLs
kurang ajarr eh korg.
mintak tapak sepuluh jek!
lol.
it's a Parody to Jay Sean's 'Down'..
this is the vid,



lol..

anyhoos,
He's finally graduated.
Wonderboy.
no more looking forward to Wed and Thurs lessons as..
haish.
nvm.
imma dedicate this song to you.
and my other eyecandies that's graduated. lol.



of course bukan dorg mati lahh!
haha
tapi..
paham2 je lah k!
lau tak paham,
bodoh pey anjing.
LOL.

Yesterday,
planned to sleep @ 12am.
since the next day kerje pagy kan.
skali start chatting ngn Riding Buddy aku, Risa.
bbual mrepek giler nyer.
buat aku kekek2 pagi2 buta..
and some 'touching' moments jugak lah kan.
to summarise things,
We go CDC bukan stakat nak dpat lesen but also kiter dapat,
'Matair, Ex, Scandal & also a Father.'
lol.
logged off only @ about 3am.
kecoh sak bbual ngn pmpan tu.
tu pun dier tak kasi aku offline.
Hhahaa!

klah, will update soon kay.
most prolly after Finals.
bnyk2 pun aku tweet jek kay.

Sayonaraaaa!

Phrase of the day; Everyone seem to be trippin @ work. Need hug ehh? lol

KlaH,tilL deN..
lOTsA LUrVE,
aylana xoxo

Sunday, February 21, 2010
Last blogged @ 1:11 AM

at times..
i really feel like just blocking it all out.
closing 'the fcking door to my heart'

BUT

i'm farr to young to be doing that.
geez.
i'm only turning 19 this year.
and i'm already in this shit.

just fucking great.

Try going to sleep with a broken heart.
AGAIN.
and AGAIN.
and AGAINN.
AND FUCKING AGAINNN.

ergh.

Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Last blogged @ 10:49 PM

Let’s say a guy named Fred is attracted to a woman named Martha.
He asks her out to a movie; she accepts; they have a pretty good time.
A few nights later he asks her out to dinner, and again they enjoy themselves.

They continue to see each other regularly, and after a while neither one of them is seeing anybody else.
And then, one evening when they’re driving home,
a thought occurs to Martha, and,
without really thinking, she says it aloud:
“Do you realize that, as of tonight, we’ve been seeing each other for exactly six
months?”
And then, there is silence in the car.
To Martha, it seems like a very loud silence.
She thinks to herself: I wonder if it bothers him that I said that.
Maybe he’s been feeling confined by our relationship;
maybe he thinks I’m trying to push him into some kind of obligation that he doesn’t want, or isn’t sure of.
And Fred is thinking: Gosh. Six months.
And Martha is thinking: But, hey, I’m not so sure I want this kind of relationship either.
Sometimes I wish I had a little more space, so I’d have time to think about whether I really want us to keep going the way we are, moving steadily towards,
I mean, where are we going? Are we just going to keep seeing each other at this level of intimacy?
Are we heading toward marriage?
Toward children?
Toward a lifetime together?
Am I ready for that level of commitment?
Do I really even know this person?

And Fred is thinking: …so that means it was…let’s see…February when we started going out,
which was right after I had the car at the dealer’s,
which means…lemme check the odometer…Whoa! I am way overdue for an oil change here.
And Martha is thinking: He’s upset.
I can see it on his face.
Maybe I’m reading this completely wrong.
Maybe he wants more from our relationship, more intimacy, more commitment;
maybe he has sensed - even before I sensed it -
that I was feeling some reservations.
Yes, I bet that’s it.
That’s why he’s so reluctant to say anything about his own feelings.
He’s afraid of being rejected.

And Fred is thinking: And I’m gonna have them look at the transmission again.
I don’t care what those morons say, it’s still not shifting right.
And they better not try to blame it on the cold weather this time.
What cold weather?
It’s 87 degrees out, and this thing is shifting like a garbage truck, and I paid those incompetent thieves $600.

And Martha is thinking: He’s angry.
And I don’t blame him.
I’d be angry, too.
I feel so guilty, putting him through this, but I can’t help the way I feel.
I’m just not sure.

And Fred is thinking: They’ll probably say it’s only a 90-day warranty…scumballs.

And Martha is thinking: Maybe I’m just too idealistic, waiting for a knight to come riding up on his white horse,
when I’m sitting right next to a perfectly good person,
a person I enjoy being with,
a person I truly do care about, a person who seems to truly care about me.
A person who is in pain because of my self-centered, schoolgirl romantic fantasy.

And Fred is thinking: Warranty? They want a warranty? I’ll give them a warranty. I’ll take their warranty and stick it right up their…

“Fred,” Martha says aloud.
“What?” says Fred, startled.
“Please don’t torture yourself like this,” she says, her eyes beginning to brim with tears. “Maybe I should never have…oh dear, I feel so…”(She breaks down, sobbing.)
“What?” says Fred.
“I’m such a fool,” Martha sobs. “I mean, I know there’s no knight. I really know that. It’s silly. There’s no knight, and there’s no horse.”
“There’s no horse?” says Fred.
“You think I’m a fool, don’t you?” Martha says.
“No!” says Fred, glad to finally know the correct answer.
“It’s just that…it’s that I…I need some time,” Martha says. (There is a 15-second pause while Fred, thinking as fast as he can, tries to come up with a safe response. Finally he comes up with one that he thinks might work.)
“Yes,” he says. (Martha, deeply moved, touches his hand.)
“Oh, Fred, do you really feel that way?” she says.
“What way?” says Fred.
“That way about time,” says Martha.
“Oh,” says Fred. “Yes.” (Martha turns to face him and gazes deeply into his eyes, causing him to become very nervous about what she might say next, especially if it involves a horse. At last she speaks.)
“Thank you, Fred,” she says.
“Thank you,” says Fred.

Then he takes her home, and she lies on her bed, a conflicted, tortured soul, and weeps until dawn,
whereas when Fred gets back to his place,
he opens a bag of Doritos, turns on the TV,
and immediately becomes deeply involved in a rerun of a college basketball game between two South Dakota junior colleges that he has never heard of.
A tiny voice in the far recesses of his mind tells him that something major was going on back there in the car,
but he is pretty sure there is no way he would ever understand what,
and so he figures it’s better if he doesn’t think about it.

The next day Martha will call her closest friend, or perhaps two of them, and they will talk about this situation for six straight hours.
In painstaking detail, they will analyze everything she said and everything he said, going over it time and time again, exploring every word, expression, and gesture for nuances of meaning, considering every possible ramification.
They will continue to discuss this subject, off and on, for weeks, maybe months, never reaching any definite conclusions, but never getting bored with it either.

Meanwhile, Fred, while playing racquetball one day with a mutual friend of his and Martha’s, will pause just before serving, frown, and say: “Norm, did Martha ever own a horse?”
And that’s the difference between men and women

taken from a beautiful lady, A.C's blog.

Lotsa lurve,
aylana xoxo

Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Last blogged @ 12:06 AM

heYyYy..

i seriusly think guys nowadays need to brush up on their english.
like,
SERIOUSLY.
ystd, i posted this as my personal msg @ msn,
i need a rebound. and quick. anyone?

and the stupid guys automatically thinks that i need someone to fullfill my sexual needs.
WTF siaa you guys.
mtfckin idiots or whutt mann.

well, whutever it is.
after talking to Listening Buddy,
finally decided on letting it go..
fer my own good.

Okay.
Vday's like any other day.
being single on the day, whuts new right.
heh.
but
received a Rose though.
a real one.
hehes..
thnks Bik Rina =)
suweet aunt i have huh.

Today proceeded to SGH to visit ChaCha..
he's down with Leukemia.
bt he looked strong just now.
he was undergoing Chemotherapy or smth like dat uh.
i tot go into machine2 ,
skali dier mcm drip gitu je lah..
hahas..
well, will pray fer your fast recovery okay.
eventho your gonna miss 1 yr of ur sch life,
ur lyfe is much more important kay.
take cre of urself.

after tt,
met Faizlin @ Bugis.
Proceeded to usual place,
started on our TPS project cum sheesha session.
talked abt almost everything.
i felt good letting most of it out.
and thnks babe fer the treat.
BK for LATE dinner.
reached home @ 11-ish.

tmrw gonna masukkan duit kat CDC
and book my next pract.
den maybr buy my jeans @ penin
follow anyone?
hehhs.

will update more soon aites.
Sayonaraaaa~

Phrase of the day; Sat next to Kumar's table @ BK just now.

kLAH,tilL deN..
loTsa lURve,
aylana xoxo

Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Last blogged @ 11:21 PM

as part of my Distraction,
i'm oggling my eyes over these item.
I SOO SOOOO SOOOOOO WANT THEM PUHLEASE!!!!!!!


okayy. i've already got my hands on this one.
yang items kat bawah nieeee!!


BEDSHEETS <33333


SHADES <3333


HOODAYE <33


HANDBAG <333


HANDBAG <333


HANDBAG <33


SHIRTS N HALTERS <333



Phrase of the day; at least now, there's no regrets of never tryin..

Klah,till deN..
loTsa luRve,
aylana xoxo

Saturday, February 6, 2010
Last blogged @ 10:45 PM

hey..

i think the time of the month is cumin..
why?
i've been sOoOOo fcukin emotional lately.
it came to a point when,
just now, Lil Bro said smth nasty to me and i actually teared up!
yes. i cried.
bukan melalak lah..but y'knw..
few teardrops gituk.

pecah whye.

i dun feel like guing out..
Everything i do mcm tk kene..
even the way i look, which im usually fine with,
TAK KENE!

to make things worst,
i think Wonderboy thinks imma freak or smth.
:'(
rmbr the chocs i Anonymously gave him the other day?
thru my SVE project tuuh.
well yesterday,
i logged in Facebook and randomly went to hys profile..
i was fcukin happy when i saw his shoutout.
'Thanks to whoever that gave me the chocolate. It was a nice gesture..'

i immedietely PM-ed my gf, Faizlin.
told her abt it and she suggested that i shud give hym a message.
telling him it was me etc..
after much thought,
i sent him a msg on facebook.
'hey, it was me whom sent you the chocs. hope ya enjoyed em. & your welcome, friend!'
Faizlin said the message was okay.
so yeah.

Little did i expect,
he ONLINE-ed just minutes after i sent him the message.
i was fcukin nervous waiting for his reaction, reply or smth lah..
den he replied.


'oh it was you. thank you.'


thats all.
and he went offline after dat.

im fcuking confused.
i don't know whuts hys reaction ..
is he sincere when he said thnks right after knowing it was me?
or..
he's prolly thinking, wtf. why must it be me tt sent the chocs.

fcukk.
i dunnoe whuts gotten into me.
i've never been this risk taker before.
i've never 'acted' on a crush.
i mean,
so far lau i have a crush on someone,
that'll be it.
just a passing eyecandy.
He's different.
I add him up at FB,
poke-ed him,
even STARTED A CONVO with him.

now i know how Amathani feels.
why she feels like running away everytime Myn is near.
I don't wanna go school on Monday.

for once,
im glad he's graduating is a few months time.


ahhhh fuck!

I HOPE this is just some overreaction im having due to the weird moodswings im having now.
please pass soon =(
i hate this feeling.
I need Simpang where i can pour everything out.
I need my Good Girls coz even when im down, they never fail to make me laugh.

Phrase of the day; loyalty in question. moving on soon?

Klah,till den..
lOTsa luRve,
aylana xoxo

Tuesday, February 2, 2010
Last blogged @ 10:59 PM

heyYyYy!~

since i've had Twitter,
mcm da malas gituk nk update sini..
khekehekhekee..

alright.
woke up in the morning feeling like P.diddy.

lol.
itu lagu lahh.

kk.
woke up @ 6am this morning.
eventho no sch -_-'
why?
Send The Brother off to Home Team Academy for his NS.
he siang2 da botak kan diri dulu.
haha..


NS BOYYY

took e car there.
Ayah didn't go coz it'd be uncomfortable fer hym
with his pain and all.
so only me & Mama sent him off just now.
Reached HTA by 7.45am
greeted by a WONDERFUL sight.! heeheeee

We had a tour around the bunks and facilities,
this part i really loike. khekhekehke..
many giler sehh youuu.
all over the place.
guys..guyss..guyyss..IN UNIFORM! hawtness sungguh.
HAHAHA.

after tour,
had briefing, performance, alliegance affirmation thingy then Lunch.
Lunch is the 2nd part of it all the i loike.
had it e Mess Hall.
everyone gathered there for lunch/parting embrace.
why i loike?
Coz i get to meet The Brother's friend who reminds me of an ex, BUT 10x hotter.
wayy hotter.
body builder uu..
lagy2 bila dier senyum..
aaahhhhh..
LOL.

while our on our way out of HTA,
some of the guys are real friendly
i mean, REAL FRIENDLY.
hahhs.

whut a good way to start of the day kan kan kann.=D

Mama sent me to sch @ 2pm.
eventho no sch,
came down to Support Sunshine & Aput SatSat Sachok siao star,lol, 's booth.
and also to do my prject.
reached sch,
booth @ foyer,
proceeded to canteen jap,
saw Do Re Mi Fa..
den when i came back to e foyer,
hate ya Nequisya for that comment btw,
GUESS WHO I SAW?!?!?!!!
heheeheeheee

i couldnt help but to smile frm one ear to another siaa.
WONDERBOYY! =D
Sunshine and Moonface gave me a very cheeky smile.
pape k korg! hahahaa..
and SISQA! sungguh tk perlu sehh kau!
gerammm mak.
she sengaja ckp kuat2,
'ouhh..Na! kau suker yang tuu ehhh..yang bawak shoe bag tuuuh..'
kurang ajar kauuuu.
lol.

Headed for Revision after that.
was, first time!, late for it.
haha.
everyone @ the exercise area oready..
was fcuking hawt just now mann.

okay.
i think tts bout it lah kn.
pape ku updates lagy kay.

Sayonaraaaa..

Phrase of the day; for a second or so, u sounded sincere.. LOL.fcuk uu Jx! i was!

Klah,till den.
loTsa luRve,
aylana xoxo